The Torah pushes the lie that we are separate from god. It doesn’t do this by telling us to do bad things. It’s much more subtle than that.
By the very act of issuing a command god initiated the seperation. You don’t tell yourself what to do. Even if you do have a little voice saying “do so and so at such and such a time” you are projecting this from outside of yourself.
At least it appears that way. Are you that voice? Surely not because it comes and it goes and you remain. So even when you give a command to yourself you have to initiate a seperation. You need to create a distinction between the you who tells you what to do and the you who does (or often doesn’t) do what you are told.
Now then this distinction is death. It is dissolution. That is to say it is a fragmentation of a whole.
This occurs whether you are obedient or not. That is to say that obedience is irrelevant when it comes to this seperation.
So really Adam and eve died the day they were told not to eat. They just became aware of it when they and god went their seperate ways.
When their will became evidently seperated from the superficial will of god.
This is how Paul can say with one breath that “I delight in the law of god after the inward man” and with the next that “the commandment which was (apparently) ordained to life I found to be unto death”.
Now of course I’m missing out some steps. The mechanism by which the command creates the illusion of seperation or death is sin which as I have shown elsewhere (just type sin in my search bar) is failure.
So we come to feel seperate from god when we fail to do what god commands.
But that seperation was already there when god gave the command. See god pushed us away we didn’t flee from him. At least in the biblical narrative.
Now how would doing what god commands make any difference? It obviously wouldn’t. At least not to the seperation between us and god.
Really when you are under the law oneness with god is simply not on the table. You may feel he is pleased with you or displeased with you; which one is entirely dependent upon how hard on yourself you are.
But guilt or innocence do nothing to change it. In fact they both exacerbate the sense of seperation.
This is why Paul says in 1 corinthians “all things are lawful to me”. It’s really the same statement as “We are saved by Grace”. Our unity with god just is. You see it or you don’t. If you see it then no matter what you do it will still be there.
This seeing is something you either have or you don’t. It doesn’t matter how naughty or nice you are. I’m actually convinced that Charles Manson gets this… as did Ghandi.
God takes responsibility for evil. “Shall there be evil in a city and the Lord hath not done it”. “I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.”
Don’t try and get him off the hook. Who made you God’s lawyer? Don’t you think he can do a better job himself?
What is salvation? Eternal life right? And what is eternal life? “this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent“.
Jesus said of himself “The Son can do nothing of himself, but what he seeth the Father do: for what things soever he doeth, these also doeth the Son likewise.”
What Jesus was doing was showing our actual (whether we know it or not, whether we like it not) relationship to god.
Look at yourself as you think, as you act and as you experience. Everything and I mean everything; your thoughts, decisions, feelings and everything you sense have this quality of coming from nowhere and going nowhere.
What do you think that nowhere is? All because you are not aware of a thing doesn’t mean it’s not there and this thing, this place from which everything you call you comes is the ultimate invisible.
It can’t be spoken.
It can’t be touched.
It can’t be conceived.
And it’s from there that we come and we go. Not just way back then when I metastasized from my mother but right now. Right this second we are proceeding out from this unmentionable and vanishing into it.
We are the image of it. As is everything else.
“Who is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of every creature:”
In revelations it says of Christ he was the “Lamb slain from the foundation of the world“. What this is saying is the exact same thing that the communion is saying.
“Jesus took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to his disciples, saying, “Take and eat; this is my body.””
This act along with the crucifixion was pointing back to the creation.
God incarnated himself in physical form and then crucified himself. He split himself up into many parts.
This incarnation isn’t seperate from god just as the movements of a dancer aren’t seperate from the dancer.
Then hid from himself by acting out man and telling man (himself) what to do. Just as you do in your head all the time with all your pretend conversations.
Does this mean the death of Jesus 2000 years ago was just a symbol? In a way it does but it’s a symbol that points forward as well as backward.
It was the end of the hide part of the cosmic game of hide and seek god plays with himself and it’s defining feature was “all things are lawful for me”. It was the end of the command.
At least it was for the Hebrews.