The illusion

Every now and then god gets bored of being blissful so he plays these far out games where he pretends he isn’t him but poor little us who get hurt and die.

He’s so good that he fools himself absolutely.

I mean you don’t feel like god do you.

Neither do I.

But just as I can show you an illusion. Like say one of those illusions where some lines look like they are different sizes but are really the same size.

You can even know it’s an illusion and how it works. But still your eyes are fooled by it.

Just in the same way it can be shown that if there is a god then you are god because of what we say god is but we can never the less feel like we are seperate from everything.

That we are not god who is supposed to be the ground of being. The fabric and structure of existence.

That we are poor little mes who are the victims of circumstance.

I mean whatever is putting on this whole show is such a good actor that he’s got himself on the edge of his seat! He’s even got himself committing suicide even though he knows it’s a show.

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The biblical dialectic

The Torah pushes the lie that we are separate from god. It doesn’t do this by telling us to do bad things. It’s much more subtle than that.

By the very act of issuing a command god initiated the seperation. You don’t tell yourself what to do. Even if you do have a little voice saying “do so and so at such and such a time” you are projecting this from outside of yourself.

At least it appears that way. Are you that voice? Surely not because it comes and it goes and you remain. So even when you give a command to yourself you have to initiate a seperation. You need to create a distinction between the you who tells you what to do and the you who does (or often doesn’t) do what you are told.

Now then this distinction is death. It is dissolution. That is to say it is a fragmentation of a whole.

This occurs whether you are obedient or not. That is to say that obedience is irrelevant when it comes to this seperation.

So really Adam and eve died the day they were told not to eat. They just became aware of it when they and god went their seperate ways.

When their will became evidently seperated from the superficial will of god.

This is how Paul can say with one breath that “I delight in the law of god after the inward man” and with the next that “the commandment which was (apparently) ordained to life I found to be unto death”.

Now of course I’m missing out some steps. The mechanism by which the command creates the illusion of seperation or death is sin which as I have shown elsewhere (just type sin in my search bar) is failure.

So we come to feel seperate from god when we fail to do what god commands.

But that seperation was already there when god gave the command. See god pushed us away we didn’t flee from him. At least in the biblical narrative.

Now how would doing what god commands make any difference? It obviously wouldn’t. At least not to the seperation between us and god.

Really when you are under the law oneness with god is simply not on the table. You may feel he is pleased with you or displeased with you; which one is entirely dependent upon how hard on yourself you are.

But guilt or innocence do nothing to change it. In fact they both exacerbate the sense of seperation.

This is why Paul says in 1 corinthians “all things are lawful to me”. It’s really the same statement as “We are saved by Grace”. Our unity with god just is. You see it or you don’t. If you see it then no matter what you do it will still be there.

This seeing is something you either have or you don’t. It doesn’t matter how naughty or nice you are. I’m actually convinced that Charles Manson gets this… as did Ghandi.

God takes responsibility for evil. “Shall there be evil in a city and the Lord hath not done it”. “I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.

Don’t try and get him off the hook. Who made you God’s lawyer? Don’t you think he can do a better job himself?

What is salvation? Eternal life right? And what is eternal life? “this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent“.

Jesus said of himself “The Son can do nothing of himself, but what he seeth the Father do: for what things soever he doeth, these also doeth the Son likewise.

What Jesus was doing was showing our actual (whether we know it or not, whether we like it not) relationship to god.

Look at yourself as you think, as you act and as you experience. Everything and I mean everything; your thoughts, decisions, feelings and everything you sense have this quality of coming from nowhere and going nowhere.

What do you think that nowhere is? All because you are not aware of a thing doesn’t mean it’s not there and this thing, this place from which everything you call you comes is the ultimate invisible.

It can’t be spoken.

It can’t be touched.

It can’t be conceived.

And it’s from there that we come and we go. Not just way back then when I metastasized from my mother but right now. Right this second we are proceeding out from this unmentionable and vanishing into it.

We are the image of it. As is everything else.

Who is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of every creature:

In revelations it says of Christ he was the “Lamb slain from the foundation of the world“. What this is saying is the exact same thing that the communion is saying.

Jesus took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to his disciples, saying, “Take and eat; this is my body.”

This act along with the crucifixion was pointing back to the creation.

God incarnated himself in physical form and then crucified himself. He split himself up into many parts.

This incarnation isn’t seperate from god just as the movements of a dancer aren’t seperate from the dancer.

Then hid from himself by acting out man and telling man (himself) what to do. Just as you do in your head all the time with all your pretend conversations.

Does this mean the death of Jesus 2000 years ago was just a symbol? In a way it does but it’s a symbol that points forward as well as backward.

It was the end of the hide part of the cosmic game of hide and seek god plays with himself and it’s defining feature was “all things are lawful for me”. It was the end of the command.

At least it was for the Hebrews.

Who are you?

” For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of His good pleasure.” Phil. 2:13

To see this is to see god peeping out of the eyes of everyone.

It makes my job a wonderful act.

I’m a support worker.

And I see god in them all.

The same I that is behind me or my ego is the I that is behind yours and everyone’s and the people I care for.

What does Paul say to the Athenians? That god is closer than they think.

“The kingdom of heaven is within you.”

You know when Jesus says he is the son of God and the Jews try to stone him and he replies:

Do not your own scriptures say you are little God’s?

In the kjv that “the” in “The son of god” is in italics because it isn’t what the Greek says.

The Greek says “I am a (A) son of god.”

The spirit of the Lord is a lamp that searcheth out the inward parts of a man.

I believe this refers to consciousness.

Deep deep down and far far in you are god because there is nothing else but god.

What else could there be?

Nihilo ex nihil.

You, me and flowers and stones are acts that god puts on for shits and giggles.

Really you and me are illusions. A way for god to pretend he isn’t himself for a bit so he can have a thrill when he wakes up.

What other reason could there possibly be for god to act?

He already has it all.

Nothing can be added to him and nothing taken.

The only motive that makes sense for God to have is to play for fun and that’s what creation is.

All stories need a hero and a villain.

So god pretends to be both.

But no one is hurt because there is just god.

In all your sufferings I suffer with you.

He suffers with us because he is us.

But we aren’t powerful.

We are to god what your lap is to you.

You stand up and where is your lap?

The question why will take you home.

Why does god do what he does?

Why do you do what you do?

You only work so you can play and enjoy.

A purpose is a temporary thing.

A purpose is work.

The true wisdom lies in the pointless.

The pointless is play and dance and music.

Heaven and hell are the same place seen from different perspective.

Another word for futility is… well what is more futile than play.

Yet what do you love to do with your dog’s and kids?

What if you were God

Let us play a game.

A game of pretend.

Only at the end of the game if you win you’ll realize that it wasn’t a game.

That really what you thought wasn’t a game was a game.

So to begin I want you to close your eyes. Well I don’t because you won’t be able to read what I write if you do.

But anyway pretend to close your eyes.

Now I want you to imagine what it would be like to be God with a big G.

You can do whatever you want, you know everything and you are everywhere.

Question: what are you going to do?

Well come on. What would you do if you won the lottery so to speak?

Imagine the questions that would bug you in this state.

What is the point? What am I to do?

It’s all well and good being poor you know. These questions don’t really come up.

What is the point? To get rich of course; or at least make it so I don’t have to worry about food and shelter anymore.

What am I to do? Another easy one: try to get rich, build a hut or whatever.

It’s all very well being in a state of need. The need sorts those questions out for you.

But now I’m asking you what do you do when there is no need? After you’ve got that house and you’re rich and you have slaves to do everything for you. What do you do?

In a sense owning slaves is a lot like the power we ascribe to god. I speak “give me steak!” And voila my employee brings me steak.

God speaks “Let there be light” and voila there is light.

The only difference is that the universe in this way of thinking is God’s slave.

Well what would you do if you were God?

I’m not really looking for an answer to the question. It would be different for everybody anyway.

But that this question seems the most appropriate question one would ask oneself if one were God is interesting.

Why? Because it’s what we ask ourselves all the time.

That is to say that the most fundamental question man can ask “What am I to do?” Is the only question it makes any sense for God to ask also.

“Well I am. I want to be. Obviously I want to be otherwise I wouldn’t be. I’m god after all I can not be if I didn’t want to be. What on earth am I supposed to do?” Says god.

“Well here I am. I’m alive. Obviously I want to be alive because it’s easy to not be alive. I just chuck myself under a bus. But what the hell am I do with myself” says man.

Everyone reaches this state. Once you’ve put the time in at work to feed and clothe yourself you get home. You can do stuff but all the stuff you need to do has been done.

What are you to do?

On revelation

I have a lot of time for the idea that God could reveal himself to people in such a way that they know.
 
It’s a bit like experience. You can make all kinds of statements up in your head but you know (don’t you?) what statements correspond to what you experience.
 
Not that your experience necessarily corresponds to an external reality; but that you know that your statement about what you are experiencing is about what you are experiencing.
 
But if someone never had that experience and heard your statements they would not be able to verify it for themselves.
 
It could be the same with the god thing. People could have that experience and other people who don’t wouldn’t be able to verify it.
 
It could be from this that famous quotes like “Those that don’t know speak those that do know don’t speak” come from.
 
And like how our statements about what we experience can be erroneous but never-the-less statements about the experience so can the statements people who have epiphanies make be erroneous.
 
They could muddy the experience by trying to make what they experience fit their preconceived ideas about morality.

The verses that finish the christian scriptures

There are 2 verses in the new testament that I believe finish scripture. Beyond the truth contained in these 23 words there isn’t really much more to be said.

“For in him we live and move and have our being” Acts 17:28

“For from him, and through him and to him are all things” Romans 11:36

To understand what it means to have your being in something I believe we can use the analogy of shapes.

Firstly, “being” is a verb that designates existence. That something is. It is in fact the most universal thing that can be said of anything. Every single thing has this quality of existence.

Now the question of existence is a dense and complicated question that has had many many texts dedicated to it. Many of the hardest, most dense and complicated texts have been written on this subject “Being and time”, “Being and nothingness” and pretty much all the existentialist texts deal with this question.

The problem isn’t so much in that we don’t know what it is. It’s like consciousness; we all know what is meant by this term but it’s difficult to pin down. So the difficulty is in how to enunciate or define this quality.

Now I’m not going to tackle that. I’m going to use an analogy inspired by another part of the first quote. Namely “In him we… move”.

So imagine a triangle. What is it within which the triangle moves and has its being? It’s space isn’t it. You could say that space – here 2-dimensional space – is the prerequisite for shapes. Before a shape can move there has to be an area that isn’t the shape for the shape to move into. This is self-evident.

We cannot imagine a shape without an outside. Try it.

A funny thing results from this. What is different about the inside as compared to the outside? Nothing except it’s location in respects to 3 lines. That is to say that the space on the inside of a shape is indistinguishable qualitatively from the space outside of it; the difference lies entirely within the context.

Also what are the lines? We shade them a different colour in our imagination but that’s a highlighting. That is to say that the shape of the shape is entirely arbitrary. That is the lines are merely highlighted space which could be highlighted any other way.

Where am I going with this? I am saying that the ultimate truth that all scripture was leading to and that finished scripture once it was uttered is the truth that all is God and God is all. Once this is known fully then there is no need for knowledge or prophecy. This is also the truth of the vedantic philosophy of Advaita.

Love, Power and the Gospel Part 3/3

 

What does Jesus do? This is key because here it would be so easy for him to remedy his situation.

To fix it.

But no.

Instead Jesus takes active steps to ensure his own destruction.

He actively participates in the conspiracy erected against him.

Essentially Jesus is saying to the so called powers of the world “Do what you can, come on throw it all at me, do your worst” and when the world refrains, when it draws back Jesus is there again to say to it:

You would have no authority over me at all unless it had been given you from above. Therefore he who delivered me over to you has the greater sin.” John 19:11

That is he says the exact thing necessary to not only make Pilate crucify him but to make him feel OK about doing it!

How is this powerful?

This is powerful because it doesn’t come from a lack. The bare narrative is this:

False-power exerts itself against real power.

Real power fully accepts and acquiesces in every action taken against it.

It simply sits there silent in the face of the noise or acts to increase the adversarial adversity of the adversary.

After false-power has exhausted itself, that is emptied itself into the silence, real-power forgives it and then shows it that there is nothing to be forgiven.

Real power cannot be hurt, there is nothing you can give it or take from it.

False-power finally sees that what had really been happening was it had been expressing itself to love and being accepted and included and shown that it is loved.

That this relationship of expression and appreciation, of love was behind the mouldy facade of the power relation.

So Jesus portrayed power most explicitly when he was dying on the cross and he still loved his adversaries in the statement “Forgive them father for they not what they do”.

Love, Power and the Gospel Part 2/3

The single event in history that displayed true power in all its raw, loving beauty was the crucifixion of Jesus and the character of Jesus displayed especially near his death.

From the common understanding of power this seems absurd.

They would have it that Jesus be some superhuman who dominates the situation, who safe-guards his life, who removes obstacles etc.

They would say that a man who was silent in the face of rebuke, who did nothing when spat at, who didn’t defend himself when fictional accusations and deceitful mis-interpretations were brought against himself…

They would say such a man was not powerful.

At most they may applaud him with resignation.

But Jesus’ pacificity was potent.

A beautiful example of how radical Christ’s pacificity was is in his exchange with Pilate.

Pilate’s wife had had a dream and begged him not to do anything to Jesus.

Pilate wanted an out, some means to save face in his struggle between the emperor and the jews, and not crucify Christ. This is the situation expressed in:

“So Pilate said to Him, “Do You refuse to speak to me? Do You not know that I have authority to release You and authority to crucify You?”” John 19:10

He’s saying, “Look, I’m the wielder of power here. I can let you go. I want to let you go. I wouldn’t be saying all this if I wanted to crucify you I would just do it!”

Love, Power and the Gospel Part 1/3

The function of sin is so that God can express an aspect of his character that can only be expressed through forgiving.

It’s not even that there is anything to forgive because it is God Himself that in the biblical narrative establishes man and supports man, even incites man to become His own adversary (David incited by God to number israel, the law’s function being to make sin increase etc).

For a long time I wondered about this. I could see that the biblical narrative had God doing this but I couldn’t see what for.

It’s so that love could express itself as power and as true power.

Most people think that power is what is portrayed as power. That is as front.

They think that power is attempting to make the world conform to their will, being able to remove discomfort etc… All that they think of as power is really the absence of power in that they wouldn’t do what they did if they didn’t already have a lack, a vulnerability.

Even the act of giving commands hides the truth that he who issues the command is not the sole wielder of power. The commandee has to acquiesce.

Then people call power the acts of coercion employed to bend the victim’s will but this act is itself the evidence, the effect, the symptom of the fact that the person they are being used on is actually not under their control, is not under their power.

Seeing this is the key to understanding the Gospels. It is the key to understanding Jesus and by proxy God.

What is the Law for?

What is the law for?

The law is not for what you think it is for!

See most people believe that the law is something we are supposed to use as a guide; something we are supposed to try to fulfil. This is a total error.

The law is there to show us how weak, powerless, futile and wretched we are. In fact the main purpose of the law is to show us how we don’t even have control over ourselves!

In relation to sin the law is there to make us sin more!

What is sin? It comes from the Greek word “hamartia” (missing the mark). I believe it was a term used in archery. All the law is, is a mark set up for us to fail at hitting!

Anything can become a law.

Do not eat sugar, stop smoking, work harder.

We constantly bind ourselves up in law without even noticing it!

Ultimately the purpose of law is to bring us to Christ by making us realize how powerless and wretched we are so we cry out to him to save us!

Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!”

(In fact read Romans 7 and 8! Paul says it much better than I do!)

The law is there to make sin appear sinful (Romans 7:13), to make sin bear fruit unto death (Romans 7:5) so that death will have its perfect work in making us die to this world of sin and death so that Father can make us live in Christ!

Forget the law, move on from the school-master and walk with Him who fulfilled the law!

The law can become an idol to us that are in the grace of God because we are supposed to walk by faith and not by sight. The law is a very visible comfort; it puffs you up, it makes you self-righteous, arrogant, disdainful, and ultimately it will kill you! But that is good because you die to death only so that you live to life!

“But the anointing which ye have received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in him.” 1 John 2:27