My faith in christian language.

I’m in the intermediate state between fully trusting Christ.

In that I still think there is something I can say and some thing that they can follow that will save them.

But it is entirely the work of god.

That I am a mere spectator.

You know god is god.

God is god!

I’m not in charge.

I’ve tried and I still try to be in charge.

I still try to tell people what to do.

How to live their lives.

But faith is faith and sight is sight.

Faith is not sight.

I think I see what is the correct or best way to live life.

But that is not faith.

Faith is to know that god is in charge.

That things may not be going as I think they should but god is in charge.

That by me disagreeing with the way things are going.

And I do. I think they could be so much better.

But that is not faith.

The crux is the good news.

That god is in charge and that god is love.

That he has the best of intentions for us.

That everything that happens. Whether we think it good or evil is in the plan of god.

And he wills that none should perish.

So we or rather I beyond sight have faith in 2 things. Or maybe 3.

God is in charge.

God is responsible for everything.

God is both willing and able to fulfill his desires.

And he loves us.

That is the good news and the crux of my view of scripture and the world.

The whole thing is a work in progress.

And he is both willing and able to bring it all to a heavenly conclusion.

Everything in opposition to this is a lack of faith in god.

I am not in control of me or anyone else.

But god is..

And thank God that he is.

This is the faith that lets me wander and return.

To mess up sometimes or most of the time.

Because I believe that in the end he has me.

I don’t need to behave all the time.

I don’t mean I do things that hurt other people.

For me personally sometimes I get drunk.

According to some churches I live in sin with my girlfriend.

I work as a support worker.

I love my job. Bringing joy and looking after people who can’t look after themselves.

But sometimes I get drunk.

Sometimes I say I’ll do things and don’t do them.

But the good news is (at least as I see it) that this doesn’t matter.

Somebody else is in charge. Somebody much more capable than me. Somebody who knows and understands everything that is going on and has total control over it all.

So I don’t fight myself.

And the funny thing is I have found that by this not fighting myself or others I have become more and more stable as time has gone on.


The inescapability of metaphysical context

You can’t escape metaphysics.

Behind every well proven truth there are unproven truths.

Things that are just taken as given.

If you successfully break the givens down and prove them well you’ve just broken them down into a new set of givens.

This process could in theory go on forever.

In practise though they are quite stubborn.

Logic is a system of connections but logic itself does not give the bits to be connected.

Science has progressed by a faith.

The faith that reality is rational.

That there will be no elements in reality incapable of a rational explanation.

This faith is unfounded until it is proven true.

It hasn’t yet been proven true because everything hasn’t been rationally explained.

This faith in the rationality of the universe is itself a metaphysical belief.

It says something universal.

If it is true there will be nothing outside of it which can be used as a comparision.

There would be no process of falsification for it.

The faith in the rationality is actually falsified by its own internal logic.

There will always be basic bits used as given data points to explain stuff.

A basic bedrock of stuff that is given.

Narratives can always be extended either further back down the narrative chain or further on up the narrative chain.

This happened then that.

That made this happen which made that happen which made this happen etc

The truth is the truth and it doesn’t matter who says it.

The truth is the truth no matter who says it.

We need to get out of the slave mentality where we judge a statement by the authority of the speaker.

When someone makes a claim we should rely on ourselves and our capacity to discern truth and falsehood.

Not rely on the good character of the speaker to know the truth and say it.

When we rely on the authority of the speaker we become fools.

Reductio ad absurdum

If a thief says it is wrong to steal does that mean it is right to steal?

Doesn’t this show that the truth is the truth and it doesn’t matter who says it?

Eat your meat.

Where there is no law there is no sin.

The law aka the administration of death.

That is what salvation is from dear brother.

Read this and see the deep truth.

The truth the elites have hidden from us.

The bible has a glorious message and it’s this.

What they have twisted it into is a superficial mess.

Their gospel is a toy a toddler would play with for 5 minutes and then toss away in disgust.

I go to church and I’m expecting to hear the real low down on life.

You know the big secret.

But all I get is a pitiful “be a good boy and be free advertising for us”

There’s no meat.

But I have given you a plateful of meat here brother.

Wean yourself off the milk of the law.

You’re a grown man. Not a baby.

You can’t worship in spirit and truth and follow the law.

The law works through fear.

You do or don’t do because of fear of punishment and desire for reward.

That is you are a fake. A make believe. A pretend person.

To live in the spirit and in truth you must leave behind the law.

And god made the law a bitter pill for the same reason mothers used to put wormwood on their nipples.

They make it horrible to force the baby to spit it out in disgust.

Stop drinking milk.

Stop propagating fear.

Stop propagating hate.

Stop working for satan.

I pray to our father that the scales may come off your eyes and you may walk in newness of life as the new creation.

The letter killeth but the spirit bringeth life.

Where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom.

There is no fear in love.

Shed the law like the rotten carcass it is and be the beautiful work of art our heavenly father has made you.


Eat your meat. You’ve had your fill of milk.

How I live my life now.

The way I live my life now isn’t so much to be better at stuff.

Sometimes I try and be happier or more confident. I’ve even got tricks that work to achieve that effect.

Seriously, no word of a lie now, no matter how down in the dumps I get; no matter how stuttery, anxious and unable to look you in the eye I get all I have to do to get out of that muddle is start meditating.

I just sit down for 20 minutes twice a day if I can or even once a day and within days – seriously I kid you not – it just starts fixing itself.

No effort.

I still get anxious and stressed and what have you but I can still look you in the eye.

I think I’m a naturally excitable chap and part of my problem is that I’ve stigmatized that and so taught myself that I’m a naughty boy if I lose my equanimity.

In a sense I’ve tricked myself into thinking that the manifestation of energy is a bad thing.

And meditation gets me out of that bind.

The funny thing is once I get to a sufficient state of Buddha feeling I often relapse.

I think this is natural.

I mean if I constantly maintained the Buddha state I would do so out of fear of the relapsed state.

So I just bounce from one to the other.

And the thing is each bounce doesn’t just seem a mundane back and forth. I’m becoming more and more comfortable with myself when I don’t do what I know I should and do what I know I shouldn’t.

Now I can hear gasps of shock in my imagined audience. But the strange thing is that as I have become more comfortable with the mess I am I have been able to maintain a competence within that mess that I couldn’t when I fought it.

The mess doesn’t change. I still stutter, feel anxious and what not but on another level I’m not there trying to fight it.

I think this is the bodisattva (I probably haven’t spelt that right but those who care about such trivial nonsense ain’t getting it and those that don’t don’t need to get it. Haha do you enjoy my dance? I do) phenomena.

I think everyone gets those flashes or times of satori, enlightenment or whatever and in them they have the choice whether or not to come back and they always come back because the only reason they wouldn’t is fear and satori and fear are kind of mutually exclusive.

Most people get them on the edge of sleep and wakefulness.

I don’t know if meditation and mindfulness would work for you. I just know they do for me. I hope they work for you. But you might be on a different path.

Maybe there is no hope for you. I simply don’t know. I just know what works for me and I feel so lucky it does.

The purpose-less ground of purpose

There is a sense in which people think nature is stupid.

They think a huge mistake was made when nature spawned man and that man is now going to turn around and destroy nature.

“Obviously” they say “nature doesn’t want that!”

But nature doesn’t mind what happens. All this stuff springs up and passes away. For no reason.

Sometimes reasons spring up. They have their day and when they are fulfilled puff they go like everything else.

Sometimes they don’t even get fulfilled they just get forgotten. It doesn’t matter; the same event happens to the fulfilled as well as the unfulfilled purpose eventually.

But nature, the tao, god or whatever sign you want doesn’t mind what happens.

What we’ve done when we say nature is stupid is separated a small part of nature from the rest and then attributed to it humanity.

We have made an image of a bit of nature we call earth and said it cares about going on as it is and it’s stupid because it has brought about it’s own destruction by giving birth to man.

But there are other planets.

There is the universe.

Really it’s an expression of our own fear for survival.

We want nature to be on our side. So we attribute to it our own interests.

If God has a master plan
That only He understands
I hope it’s your eyes He’s seeing through

As depeche mode put it.

We call nature stupid because it isn’t fulfilling the purposes we want it to have; because it has no purposes.

It’s just stuff happening.

The real issue

Essentially what is happening with privatization is not the abolishment of the state.

Rather it is a change in how people get into positions where they can have power over how the state is run.

Basically people are saying that rich people would be a better bet than elected people.

They aren’t really saying anarchy at all. They’re just dogs who want to change the man who holds the leash.

Of course the current state of affairs is rubbish.

It allows a small group of people to amass for themselves what everyone else wants and with that to either buy elected people or train people to be elected.

Which is why we need to tackle that issue.

People say us lefties have no real solutions.

We do.

Do to the work place what we did to the government.

Swap corporations and agencies for co-ops.

Instead of 1 share (basically one lot of money) for 1 vote on who gets to make decisions in a company. Make it one worker 1 vote.

Exchange shareholders for stakeholders thus taking away one means by which the rich disproportionately enrich themselves.

It’s not the final solution but if there was one thing, one simple thing we could change to most effectively make things better quicker it would be that.

I actually think us on the left have made a huge mistake in going for equal rights between women and men and people of different races.

Not that I think they are unequal.

But that I think they all result from the basic form of exploitation in the workplace.

By going for those issues we have made ourselves battle on many fronts. Where if we tear down one inequality more subtle and worse forms of inequality arise.

I don’t give a fuck what colour, race or sex you are I want all of us to be paid what we really earn and to have an equal say in how work is organized and the products of Labour distributed.

That is the only issue.

The issue behind all the issues.

Do you even know what you are arguing for or against

What is communism?

Another question:
What is capitalism?

Another question:
What is Marxism?

Now you can go out and buy books on these things.

You can school yourself on them.

You can learn the arguments for and against.

Then compare the theory to the practice.

Practice often fails because we are dealing with the issue of playing against yourself at chess. You always cheat.

So the practice of any of these systems (And there are good and bad examples on both sides. There are Hitlers on the side of capitalism and Maos on the communist side) is no criticism of the system itself.

Unless that is you can derive the bad practice from the logic of the system itself.

I mean people claim to support capitalism but they don’t know who Adam Smith is or hayek… they literally don’t have a clue what they are supporting.

And they say communism is bad but haven’t read any Marx or Engels.

They have no grasp of the theory.

Therefore their opinion is as worthless as my opinion concerning cars.

My knowledge extends to saying “that is a blue car”.

They are like I would be if I advised you on the relative benefits of a turbo over a turbo charger.

I don’t know the difference but a turbo is better.

Employment is slavery cont.. .

When you are employed you create a certain amount of value every hour you work.

But you don’t get that value. You get a percentage of it and your employer gets the rest.

The employers are the shareholders.

Like the slave owners they do nothing and reap the profits.

Where do you think profit comes from?

It is the value the worker creates above and beyond his wage.

Now say that the product you make in an hour is sold for $20 and you get $7.50 for that hour.

That means that for 3/4s of that hour you are working for nothing.

What is slavery if it isn’t working… exerting Labour for someone else’s benefit and not your own.

I mean you can call a chicken a fish if you want but if it clucks and it’s got feathers it’s a chicken.

Now at the beginning of capitalism they tried all sorts of ways to get people to work for longer hours.

Because the more hours you work the more money you make for your employer.

So they thought if they increased the wage the employee would work longer for a greater reward.

What they found was that the employee worked less. He worked enough to maintain his level of life.

I’m getting that from Weber’s “Protestantism and the capitalist…” I forget the title lol.

Anyway they found that the only way to get the worker to work long hours was to keep him at subsistence level.

To insure he never reached financial security.

Don’t you see that the slave owners didn’t go away. They just bought the political system and put on a pretty mask.

Employement is slavery.

I’m not backing the claim that anyone is property.

Property is a fiction maintained by might.

But people who believe the fiction believe that their property is an extension of themselves therefore they look after it.

Like within the current worldsystem instead of slaves (property) we generally have employees.

The employees are very often exploited to the same degree as slaves.

But the employer unlike the slave owner doesn’t look after them as well.

Because the slave owner would see the slaves as an investment that decreases in value with bad treatment.

Whereas the employer don’t give a fuck.

When an employee is used up he just hires a new one.

A bit like how you would treat a car you bought compared to a car you rent.

Essentially the difference between a slave and an employee is the difference between owning and renting.

Oh and that employment is a much more subtle form of exploitation.

People think that all because they can choose who to slave for they are not slaves for some reason.

I still prefer my employment over slavery though.

I just think all forms of exploitation need to stop if humanity is to have any hope for the future.