You’re a commie but you probably don’t know it

Most people when you get down to it agree with communism but they don’t know its called communism, socialism or Marxism.

Because they don’t know what it is they think the USSR was communist.

It wasn’t.

During the 19th century there was a debate amongst the socialists about how to get the means of production out of the hands of private individuals and into the hands of the workers.

One side said that we could use the political institutions (like representative government) to peacefully gain control of the state.

Once control of the state was achieved then they could use the states power to take the means of production from private individuals and give it to society.

Then the state would give more power to the people. Eventually you would have a kind of anarchism. Where the state was either non existent or acted as a pragmatic help for the will of the people.

The only difference between the communists and the socialists was over how to gain control of the state.

The communists were for a violent take over.

Which they did in 1911 I think.

Lenin said that what they had then wasn’t communism but a step towards it.

A bit later Stalin said it was communism.

But it wasn’t because yes the state had taken the means of production but it hadnt given them to the society.

In effect the state became the sole capitalist (USSR, China and most so called communist nations are really examples of state capitalism)

It was a failed attempt at bringing about socialism. All because the attempts to bring it about have failed so far doesn’t mean it is bad or wrong.

All that failed attempts indicate is that a learning process is occurring.

There were numerous failed attempts before capitalism managed to take over from feudalism.

And many atrocities especially committed against children in the industrial revolution.


Sexual objectification

Sex object is one level of a man or a woman.

One of my favourite levels.

But there are others.

People are silly for denying the sex object level.

Why do you want to diminish yourself.

You’re a sex object, an intellectual mind, an emotional being and a spiritual entity.

All because you are a sex object doesnt mean you’re not anything else.

How I reconcile being a socialist whilst holding that everything is god

There’s 2 levels.

There’s the big picture and then there’s my character within the big picture.

The big picture is that I’m not in control. My choices and my actions arise from beyond me.

My desires and aggravation are part of the big picture.

So I can let this character called Chris Jack go on his mission and have his passions because they are there.

All because I dont have free will doesnt mean that I can’t exert myself to make my life and the life of others better as I see better.

The big picture is that god acts through us individuals.

That is individuals are the acts of god.

I think you can put all the ills in the world down to the fact that there is exploitation going on.

That’s what makes it so that I and almost everyone else can’t do what we want when we want as much as possible.

Just so a small group can do what they want when they want all the time.

It would be better – or more honestly – I would prefer it if we maximised and equalised the amount of time everyone could spend doing what they want when they want.

That’s what I want.

I want that because god or reality made me want it.

The capitalist wants what he wants because god made him want it.

And so the stage is set for god to have a good, old, dramatic scrap with himself.

You’re bothered by taxes? What about profit?

The problem isn’t the taxes.

It is the profit you make for the boss that is the problem.

For every hour someone works they give a significant portion of what they produce to a class of people that do nothing.

The bosses and shareholders.

But most people don’t see this because the amount is subtracted from the wage before it is put into a wage slip.

For example my boss is paid 14 pound an hour to hire me.

He does no work. Yet of that 14 pound I get 7 something and he gets the rest.

It should be mine.

Basically every hour I work half an hour for my money for myself and the other half im doing my job for nothing.

That is 50% of my income goes to my boss as profits.

It’s only like 10% of my income that goes to tax.

I’d be an idiot if I was angry about the 10% taken in tax (and thats 10% of the 50% my boss leaves me with) but not angry about the 50% my boss steals.

Especially considering what taxes are meant to be for (NHS, infrastructure, schools etc for everyone) and what the profit is for (yachts, mansions and fast cars for a few private individuals).

I must get my satisfaction.

We’re seeking satisfaction right.

That is what all pursuits are doing.

Fullness. Oneness. Wholeness. Health. Stoned. Drunk. Wealth. Whatever.

We’re seeking satisfaction.

We think that once this or that condition is met then we can sit down and be satisfied.

Once I have saved enough, when I have a house, a car, a holiday, when I am drunk or stoned then I can sit down and be satisfied.

And maybe the fundamental reason we are not satisfied is because we are seeking satisfaction.

All these conditions can be seen as excuses. Put offs. I’ll be happy then but not now.

Who told us we are unsatisfied and must be satisfied. Can you remember when you thought this through?


We assume we are unsatisfied and so look around for stuff to want.

That’s what boredom is right. Looking for stuff to want.

What if you stop seeking satisfaction and just be. Maybe then after you forget about satisfaction are you satisfied.

That’s what I think enlightenment is. And I think everyone flits in and out of it all the time.

My faith in christian language.

I’m in the intermediate state between fully trusting Christ.

In that I still think there is something I can say and some thing that they can follow that will save them.

But it is entirely the work of god.

That I am a mere spectator.

You know god is god.

God is god!

I’m not in charge.

I’ve tried and I still try to be in charge.

I still try to tell people what to do.

How to live their lives.

But faith is faith and sight is sight.

Faith is not sight.

I think I see what is the correct or best way to live life.

But that is not faith.

Faith is to know that god is in charge.

That things may not be going as I think they should but god is in charge.

That by me disagreeing with the way things are going.

And I do. I think they could be so much better.

But that is not faith.

The crux is the good news.

That god is in charge and that god is love.

That he has the best of intentions for us.

That everything that happens. Whether we think it good or evil is in the plan of god.

And he wills that none should perish.

So we or rather I beyond sight have faith in 2 things. Or maybe 3.

God is in charge.

God is responsible for everything.

God is both willing and able to fulfill his desires.

And he loves us.

That is the good news and the crux of my view of scripture and the world.

The whole thing is a work in progress.

And he is both willing and able to bring it all to a heavenly conclusion.

Everything in opposition to this is a lack of faith in god.

I am not in control of me or anyone else.

But god is..

And thank God that he is.

This is the faith that lets me wander and return.

To mess up sometimes or most of the time.

Because I believe that in the end he has me.

I don’t need to behave all the time.

I don’t mean I do things that hurt other people.

For me personally sometimes I get drunk.

According to some churches I live in sin with my girlfriend.

I work as a support worker.

I love my job. Bringing joy and looking after people who can’t look after themselves.

But sometimes I get drunk.

Sometimes I say I’ll do things and don’t do them.

But the good news is (at least as I see it) that this doesn’t matter.

Somebody else is in charge. Somebody much more capable than me. Somebody who knows and understands everything that is going on and has total control over it all.

So I don’t fight myself.

And the funny thing is I have found that by this not fighting myself or others I have become more and more stable as time has gone on.

The inescapability of metaphysical context

You can’t escape metaphysics.

Behind every well proven truth there are unproven truths.

Things that are just taken as given.

If you successfully break the givens down and prove them well you’ve just broken them down into a new set of givens.

This process could in theory go on forever.

In practise though they are quite stubborn.

Logic is a system of connections but logic itself does not give the bits to be connected.

Science has progressed by a faith.

The faith that reality is rational.

That there will be no elements in reality incapable of a rational explanation.

This faith is unfounded until it is proven true.

It hasn’t yet been proven true because everything hasn’t been rationally explained.

This faith in the rationality of the universe is itself a metaphysical belief.

It says something universal.

If it is true there will be nothing outside of it which can be used as a comparision.

There would be no process of falsification for it.

The faith in the rationality is actually falsified by its own internal logic.

There will always be basic bits used as given data points to explain stuff.

A basic bedrock of stuff that is given.

Narratives can always be extended either further back down the narrative chain or further on up the narrative chain.

This happened then that.

That made this happen which made that happen which made this happen etc

The truth is the truth and it doesn’t matter who says it.

The truth is the truth no matter who says it.

We need to get out of the slave mentality where we judge a statement by the authority of the speaker.

When someone makes a claim we should rely on ourselves and our capacity to discern truth and falsehood.

Not rely on the good character of the speaker to know the truth and say it.

When we rely on the authority of the speaker we become fools.

Reductio ad absurdum

If a thief says it is wrong to steal does that mean it is right to steal?

Doesn’t this show that the truth is the truth and it doesn’t matter who says it?

Eat your meat.

Where there is no law there is no sin.

The law aka the administration of death.

That is what salvation is from dear brother.

Read this and see the deep truth.

The truth the elites have hidden from us.

The bible has a glorious message and it’s this.

What they have twisted it into is a superficial mess.

Their gospel is a toy a toddler would play with for 5 minutes and then toss away in disgust.

I go to church and I’m expecting to hear the real low down on life.

You know the big secret.

But all I get is a pitiful “be a good boy and be free advertising for us”

There’s no meat.

But I have given you a plateful of meat here brother.

Wean yourself off the milk of the law.

You’re a grown man. Not a baby.

You can’t worship in spirit and truth and follow the law.

The law works through fear.

You do or don’t do because of fear of punishment and desire for reward.

That is you are a fake. A make believe. A pretend person.

To live in the spirit and in truth you must leave behind the law.

And god made the law a bitter pill for the same reason mothers used to put wormwood on their nipples.

They make it horrible to force the baby to spit it out in disgust.

Stop drinking milk.

Stop propagating fear.

Stop propagating hate.

Stop working for satan.

I pray to our father that the scales may come off your eyes and you may walk in newness of life as the new creation.

The letter killeth but the spirit bringeth life.

Where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom.

There is no fear in love.

Shed the law like the rotten carcass it is and be the beautiful work of art our heavenly father has made you.


Eat your meat. You’ve had your fill of milk.

How I live my life now.

The way I live my life now isn’t so much to be better at stuff.

Sometimes I try and be happier or more confident. I’ve even got tricks that work to achieve that effect.

Seriously, no word of a lie now, no matter how down in the dumps I get; no matter how stuttery, anxious and unable to look you in the eye I get all I have to do to get out of that muddle is start meditating.

I just sit down for 20 minutes twice a day if I can or even once a day and within days – seriously I kid you not – it just starts fixing itself.

No effort.

I still get anxious and stressed and what have you but I can still look you in the eye.

I think I’m a naturally excitable chap and part of my problem is that I’ve stigmatized that and so taught myself that I’m a naughty boy if I lose my equanimity.

In a sense I’ve tricked myself into thinking that the manifestation of energy is a bad thing.

And meditation gets me out of that bind.

The funny thing is once I get to a sufficient state of Buddha feeling I often relapse.

I think this is natural.

I mean if I constantly maintained the Buddha state I would do so out of fear of the relapsed state.

So I just bounce from one to the other.

And the thing is each bounce doesn’t just seem a mundane back and forth. I’m becoming more and more comfortable with myself when I don’t do what I know I should and do what I know I shouldn’t.

Now I can hear gasps of shock in my imagined audience. But the strange thing is that as I have become more comfortable with the mess I am I have been able to maintain a competence within that mess that I couldn’t when I fought it.

The mess doesn’t change. I still stutter, feel anxious and what not but on another level I’m not there trying to fight it.

I think this is the bodisattva (I probably haven’t spelt that right but those who care about such trivial nonsense ain’t getting it and those that don’t don’t need to get it. Haha do you enjoy my dance? I do) phenomena.

I think everyone gets those flashes or times of satori, enlightenment or whatever and in them they have the choice whether or not to come back and they always come back because the only reason they wouldn’t is fear and satori and fear are kind of mutually exclusive.

Most people get them on the edge of sleep and wakefulness.

I don’t know if meditation and mindfulness would work for you. I just know they do for me. I hope they work for you. But you might be on a different path.

Maybe there is no hope for you. I simply don’t know. I just know what works for me and I feel so lucky it does.