My faith in christian language.

I’m in the intermediate state between fully trusting Christ.

In that I still think there is something I can say and some thing that they can follow that will save them.

But it is entirely the work of god.

That I am a mere spectator.

You know god is god.

God is god!

I’m not in charge.

I’ve tried and I still try to be in charge.

I still try to tell people what to do.

How to live their lives.

But faith is faith and sight is sight.

Faith is not sight.

I think I see what is the correct or best way to live life.

But that is not faith.

Faith is to know that god is in charge.

That things may not be going as I think they should but god is in charge.

That by me disagreeing with the way things are going.

And I do. I think they could be so much better.

But that is not faith.

The crux is the good news.

That god is in charge and that god is love.

That he has the best of intentions for us.

That everything that happens. Whether we think it good or evil is in the plan of god.

And he wills that none should perish.

So we or rather I beyond sight have faith in 2 things. Or maybe 3.

God is in charge.

God is responsible for everything.

God is both willing and able to fulfill his desires.

And he loves us.

That is the good news and the crux of my view of scripture and the world.

The whole thing is a work in progress.

And he is both willing and able to bring it all to a heavenly conclusion.

Everything in opposition to this is a lack of faith in god.

I am not in control of me or anyone else.

But god is..

And thank God that he is.

This is the faith that lets me wander and return.

To mess up sometimes or most of the time.

Because I believe that in the end he has me.

I don’t need to behave all the time.

I don’t mean I do things that hurt other people.

For me personally sometimes I get drunk.

According to some churches I live in sin with my girlfriend.

I work as a support worker.

I love my job. Bringing joy and looking after people who can’t look after themselves.

But sometimes I get drunk.

Sometimes I say I’ll do things and don’t do them.

But the good news is (at least as I see it) that this doesn’t matter.

Somebody else is in charge. Somebody much more capable than me. Somebody who knows and understands everything that is going on and has total control over it all.

So I don’t fight myself.

And the funny thing is I have found that by this not fighting myself or others I have become more and more stable as time has gone on.

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Eat your meat.

Where there is no law there is no sin.

The law aka the administration of death.

That is what salvation is from dear brother.

Read this and see the deep truth.

The truth the elites have hidden from us.

The bible has a glorious message and it’s this.

What they have twisted it into is a superficial mess.

Their gospel is a toy a toddler would play with for 5 minutes and then toss away in disgust.

I go to church and I’m expecting to hear the real low down on life.

You know the big secret.

But all I get is a pitiful “be a good boy and be free advertising for us”

There’s no meat.

But I have given you a plateful of meat here brother.

Wean yourself off the milk of the law.

You’re a grown man. Not a baby.

You can’t worship in spirit and truth and follow the law.

The law works through fear.

You do or don’t do because of fear of punishment and desire for reward.

That is you are a fake. A make believe. A pretend person.

To live in the spirit and in truth you must leave behind the law.

And god made the law a bitter pill for the same reason mothers used to put wormwood on their nipples.

They make it horrible to force the baby to spit it out in disgust.

Stop drinking milk.

Stop propagating fear.

Stop propagating hate.

Stop working for satan.

I pray to our father that the scales may come off your eyes and you may walk in newness of life as the new creation.

The letter killeth but the spirit bringeth life.

Where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom.

There is no fear in love.

Shed the law like the rotten carcass it is and be the beautiful work of art our heavenly father has made you.

Basically

Eat your meat. You’ve had your fill of milk.

You want to hear what you want to hear; you don’t hear what is.

I think the problem a lot of people have with getting what I have been talking about isn’t that it is inherently difficult to understand. It’s really quite simple.

There is nothing to be done for god and nothing to be done to gain unity with god because god needs nothing done for him and you already are united with him.

He’s god! Don’t you get it. If he needs stuff done for him then he isn’t god. It’s really that simple.

Now you don’t have to use the word god. It is just a word. Source, creation, what is, the ground of being and the structure and fabric of existence all do perfectly well for pointing to this.

He is neither good or bad but the context within which such dichotomies can exist.

Now the reason you have trouble getting this is because you want to be told what to do. It’s not enough for any old plonker to tell you; you need someone with authority to tell you what to do.

So you look for an authority and because if you look hard enough for something you’ll find it even if it isn’t there you find an authority. It could be an imam, god, Allah or Stephen fry.

You give them the authority because you choose to have them over you from the many people and things begging to tell you what to do.

So when I say “there’s nothing to be done” I’ve had people say “how am I supposed to live my life?”

I shrug my shoulders.

I’m no authority.

“Look mate” I tell them “I don’t know where I’m going and I don’t know where to go. I’m in the same boat as you and I’m lazy so I don’t really want to have to come up with stuff for you to do… I have enough trouble coming up with stuff for me to do haha

“But here’s an idea. See that steak? It looks well tasty doesn’t it? Let’s go gobble it up.”

And we eat the steak and it’s lovely and that’s really all there is to it.

What we have done is we have cast the heavenlies in the light of our own society.

Now we have the poor doing the work for the rich.

The poor need to be worked for the rich don’t because they have it all.

In the same way we have got a theological system whereby us broken suffering finite beings are supposed to Labour for the absolute and perfect.

We’ve really put the cart before the horse.

The biblical dialectic

The Torah pushes the lie that we are separate from god. It doesn’t do this by telling us to do bad things. It’s much more subtle than that.

By the very act of issuing a command god initiated the seperation. You don’t tell yourself what to do. Even if you do have a little voice saying “do so and so at such and such a time” you are projecting this from outside of yourself.

At least it appears that way. Are you that voice? Surely not because it comes and it goes and you remain. So even when you give a command to yourself you have to initiate a seperation. You need to create a distinction between the you who tells you what to do and the you who does (or often doesn’t) do what you are told.

Now then this distinction is death. It is dissolution. That is to say it is a fragmentation of a whole.

This occurs whether you are obedient or not. That is to say that obedience is irrelevant when it comes to this seperation.

So really Adam and eve died the day they were told not to eat. They just became aware of it when they and god went their seperate ways.

When their will became evidently seperated from the superficial will of god.

This is how Paul can say with one breath that “I delight in the law of god after the inward man” and with the next that “the commandment which was (apparently) ordained to life I found to be unto death”.

Now of course I’m missing out some steps. The mechanism by which the command creates the illusion of seperation or death is sin which as I have shown elsewhere (just type sin in my search bar) is failure.

So we come to feel seperate from god when we fail to do what god commands.

But that seperation was already there when god gave the command. See god pushed us away we didn’t flee from him. At least in the biblical narrative.

Now how would doing what god commands make any difference? It obviously wouldn’t. At least not to the seperation between us and god.

Really when you are under the law oneness with god is simply not on the table. You may feel he is pleased with you or displeased with you; which one is entirely dependent upon how hard on yourself you are.

But guilt or innocence do nothing to change it. In fact they both exacerbate the sense of seperation.

This is why Paul says in 1 corinthians “all things are lawful to me”. It’s really the same statement as “We are saved by Grace”. Our unity with god just is. You see it or you don’t. If you see it then no matter what you do it will still be there.

This seeing is something you either have or you don’t. It doesn’t matter how naughty or nice you are. I’m actually convinced that Charles Manson gets this… as did Ghandi.

God takes responsibility for evil. “Shall there be evil in a city and the Lord hath not done it”. “I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.

Don’t try and get him off the hook. Who made you God’s lawyer? Don’t you think he can do a better job himself?

What is salvation? Eternal life right? And what is eternal life? “this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent“.

Jesus said of himself “The Son can do nothing of himself, but what he seeth the Father do: for what things soever he doeth, these also doeth the Son likewise.

What Jesus was doing was showing our actual (whether we know it or not, whether we like it not) relationship to god.

Look at yourself as you think, as you act and as you experience. Everything and I mean everything; your thoughts, decisions, feelings and everything you sense have this quality of coming from nowhere and going nowhere.

What do you think that nowhere is? All because you are not aware of a thing doesn’t mean it’s not there and this thing, this place from which everything you call you comes is the ultimate invisible.

It can’t be spoken.

It can’t be touched.

It can’t be conceived.

And it’s from there that we come and we go. Not just way back then when I metastasized from my mother but right now. Right this second we are proceeding out from this unmentionable and vanishing into it.

We are the image of it. As is everything else.

Who is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of every creature:

In revelations it says of Christ he was the “Lamb slain from the foundation of the world“. What this is saying is the exact same thing that the communion is saying.

Jesus took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to his disciples, saying, “Take and eat; this is my body.”

This act along with the crucifixion was pointing back to the creation.

God incarnated himself in physical form and then crucified himself. He split himself up into many parts.

This incarnation isn’t seperate from god just as the movements of a dancer aren’t seperate from the dancer.

Then hid from himself by acting out man and telling man (himself) what to do. Just as you do in your head all the time with all your pretend conversations.

Does this mean the death of Jesus 2000 years ago was just a symbol? In a way it does but it’s a symbol that points forward as well as backward.

It was the end of the hide part of the cosmic game of hide and seek god plays with himself and it’s defining feature was “all things are lawful for me”. It was the end of the command.

At least it was for the Hebrews.

Who are you?

” For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of His good pleasure.” Phil. 2:13

To see this is to see god peeping out of the eyes of everyone.

It makes my job a wonderful act.

I’m a support worker.

And I see god in them all.

The same I that is behind me or my ego is the I that is behind yours and everyone’s and the people I care for.

What does Paul say to the Athenians? That god is closer than they think.

“The kingdom of heaven is within you.”

You know when Jesus says he is the son of God and the Jews try to stone him and he replies:

Do not your own scriptures say you are little God’s?

In the kjv that “the” in “The son of god” is in italics because it isn’t what the Greek says.

The Greek says “I am a (A) son of god.”

The spirit of the Lord is a lamp that searcheth out the inward parts of a man.

I believe this refers to consciousness.

Deep deep down and far far in you are god because there is nothing else but god.

What else could there be?

Nihilo ex nihil.

You, me and flowers and stones are acts that god puts on for shits and giggles.

Really you and me are illusions. A way for god to pretend he isn’t himself for a bit so he can have a thrill when he wakes up.

What other reason could there possibly be for god to act?

He already has it all.

Nothing can be added to him and nothing taken.

The only motive that makes sense for God to have is to play for fun and that’s what creation is.

All stories need a hero and a villain.

So god pretends to be both.

But no one is hurt because there is just god.

In all your sufferings I suffer with you.

He suffers with us because he is us.

But we aren’t powerful.

We are to god what your lap is to you.

You stand up and where is your lap?

The question why will take you home.

Why does god do what he does?

Why do you do what you do?

You only work so you can play and enjoy.

A purpose is a temporary thing.

A purpose is work.

The true wisdom lies in the pointless.

The pointless is play and dance and music.

Heaven and hell are the same place seen from different perspective.

Another word for futility is… well what is more futile than play.

Yet what do you love to do with your dog’s and kids?

A response to a response from a street preacher

In a sense I’m being a spoil sport.

A bit like a person who runs out on the football pitch and screams at everyone

“It’s just a game!”

You know very well what game you’re playing.

You don’t need me to tell you.

But it is fun to put on that voice.

You enjoy it too.

It’s why you preach in the streets.

You enjoy it.

But that’s not enough is it? We need to pretend we’re being serious.

But it’s just a game because God’s in charge.

If you could get that you’d see there’s nothing for anyone to do.

But we want to be the hero don’t we. The star in our own movie.

So we cling to these fictions like hell and that because they make the game serious.

But you know deep down it’s bunk because God’s in charge and he loves us.

He does the good and the bad.

All things are from, through and to him.

You do know all things includes the evil.

But of course we can’t admit that because it means we couldn’t play the game anymore.

It’s a funny old thing.

What if you were God

Let us play a game.

A game of pretend.

Only at the end of the game if you win you’ll realize that it wasn’t a game.

That really what you thought wasn’t a game was a game.

So to begin I want you to close your eyes. Well I don’t because you won’t be able to read what I write if you do.

But anyway pretend to close your eyes.

Now I want you to imagine what it would be like to be God with a big G.

You can do whatever you want, you know everything and you are everywhere.

Question: what are you going to do?

Well come on. What would you do if you won the lottery so to speak?

Imagine the questions that would bug you in this state.

What is the point? What am I to do?

It’s all well and good being poor you know. These questions don’t really come up.

What is the point? To get rich of course; or at least make it so I don’t have to worry about food and shelter anymore.

What am I to do? Another easy one: try to get rich, build a hut or whatever.

It’s all very well being in a state of need. The need sorts those questions out for you.

But now I’m asking you what do you do when there is no need? After you’ve got that house and you’re rich and you have slaves to do everything for you. What do you do?

In a sense owning slaves is a lot like the power we ascribe to god. I speak “give me steak!” And voila my employee brings me steak.

God speaks “Let there be light” and voila there is light.

The only difference is that the universe in this way of thinking is God’s slave.

Well what would you do if you were God?

I’m not really looking for an answer to the question. It would be different for everybody anyway.

But that this question seems the most appropriate question one would ask oneself if one were God is interesting.

Why? Because it’s what we ask ourselves all the time.

That is to say that the most fundamental question man can ask “What am I to do?” Is the only question it makes any sense for God to ask also.

“Well I am. I want to be. Obviously I want to be otherwise I wouldn’t be. I’m god after all I can not be if I didn’t want to be. What on earth am I supposed to do?” Says god.

“Well here I am. I’m alive. Obviously I want to be alive because it’s easy to not be alive. I just chuck myself under a bus. But what the hell am I do with myself” says man.

Everyone reaches this state. Once you’ve put the time in at work to feed and clothe yourself you get home. You can do stuff but all the stuff you need to do has been done.

What are you to do?

Eschatological maturity

“The throngs were astonished at His teaching for he was teaching them as one having authority” Matt 7:29

 

 

“Who is the image of the invisible God… Firstborn from among the dead” Col 1:15 – 18

 

 

“To you it has been given to know the secrets of the kingdom of the heavens, yet to those it has not been given” Matt 13:11

 

 

“According as Moses exalts the serpent in the wilderness, thus must the son of mankind be exalted” John 3:14

 

 

 

There is an inner and an outer teaching in scripture.

 

 

The outer is governed by law. According to the outer teaching the function of the law is to be obeyed.

 

 

The inner teaching is one of Man being brought to maturity. That is to Godhood. A place where he like God stands on his own two feet and assesses the situation. Where he speaks with his own authority.

 

 

So with Eve once the serpent had spoken to her it says “Then the woman saw that the tree was good for food, that it brought a yearning to the eyes and that the tree was desirable for gaining insight” Gen 3:6. This wasn’t a false seeing for God confirms it “Behold man has become as one of us in knowing good and evil” Gen 3:22. That indeed the fruit had brought insight and indeed – as the serpent had said – the fruit had made them more like God.

 

 

Adam and Eve didn’t fall when they ate of the tree.

 

 

Oh no!

 

 

They fell when instead of saying “Oi God why did you tell us not to eat of the tree? Why did you want to keep us in ignorance?” they cowered and said “It wasn’t my fault she/the snake made me do it.”

 

 

An Adult, a mature person is unconcerned with obedience or disobedience. Of course they don’t want to get hurt which is why an adult says “All things are lawful to me but not all things are expedient” 1 cor 10:23. You can trap your dick in the door if you want but it will hurt.

 

 

Adam and Eve were not functioning on that level. They were not thinking for themselves. They were not mature.

 

To be continued…

 

 

 

The verses that finish the christian scriptures

There are 2 verses in the new testament that I believe finish scripture. Beyond the truth contained in these 23 words there isn’t really much more to be said.

“For in him we live and move and have our being” Acts 17:28

“For from him, and through him and to him are all things” Romans 11:36

To understand what it means to have your being in something I believe we can use the analogy of shapes.

Firstly, “being” is a verb that designates existence. That something is. It is in fact the most universal thing that can be said of anything. Every single thing has this quality of existence.

Now the question of existence is a dense and complicated question that has had many many texts dedicated to it. Many of the hardest, most dense and complicated texts have been written on this subject “Being and time”, “Being and nothingness” and pretty much all the existentialist texts deal with this question.

The problem isn’t so much in that we don’t know what it is. It’s like consciousness; we all know what is meant by this term but it’s difficult to pin down. So the difficulty is in how to enunciate or define this quality.

Now I’m not going to tackle that. I’m going to use an analogy inspired by another part of the first quote. Namely “In him we… move”.

So imagine a triangle. What is it within which the triangle moves and has its being? It’s space isn’t it. You could say that space – here 2-dimensional space – is the prerequisite for shapes. Before a shape can move there has to be an area that isn’t the shape for the shape to move into. This is self-evident.

We cannot imagine a shape without an outside. Try it.

A funny thing results from this. What is different about the inside as compared to the outside? Nothing except it’s location in respects to 3 lines. That is to say that the space on the inside of a shape is indistinguishable qualitatively from the space outside of it; the difference lies entirely within the context.

Also what are the lines? We shade them a different colour in our imagination but that’s a highlighting. That is to say that the shape of the shape is entirely arbitrary. That is the lines are merely highlighted space which could be highlighted any other way.

Where am I going with this? I am saying that the ultimate truth that all scripture was leading to and that finished scripture once it was uttered is the truth that all is God and God is all. Once this is known fully then there is no need for knowledge or prophecy. This is also the truth of the vedantic philosophy of Advaita.

Who or What is the devil the father of lies?

I believe the devil is the law because it is the law that makes men lie.

How?

Because it is impossible for man to keep the law and because everyone believes that a man who keeps the law is good and because all men want to appear good so what men do is lie about not being able to keep the law in order to maintain a good image.

The law is the father of lies and satan is an allegory for the law.

Remember satan is the accuser that which is against man.

And the law is the ministration of condemnation that is the law is the accuser.

The law is also against man because if man by his very nature kept the law then there would never be any reason for the law. You don’t make a law against stealing if nobody ever steals.

The AD 70 destruction of the temple (thus making it evidently impossible to keep the law) was God saying the law has done it’s job and was now only fit for the rubbish bin. It had been fulfilled.

He gave the law to the hebrews and they became the most wicked, degenerate and evil race of people through the law.

The bible is full of how bad hebrews are.

The law finally fulfilled it’s purpose in making the hebrews so wicked that they killed Jesus that was the intent and result of the law. This is what Jesus meant when he said he hadn’t come to destroy the law but to fulfill the law.

The fulfillment of the seed is the plant but once the seed has become the plant does it become a seed again?

For the law came to make sin abound to make sin increase.

See this brother. It is a glorious gospel that liberates man to be himself. And man isn’t all that bad; murderers, peadophiles etc are in the minority.

If people were honestly themselves without hiding their true intentions to fit into some law the world would be a better place.

The law makes men liars and hidden sin is worse then honestly open sin.