My advice to you is to lay in bed and focus on the pain.
If you’ve read my things on meditation you should get this.
Meditation is basically where you pay attention to something. When you realize that your attention has wandered; you just bring it back to what you have chosen to pay attention to.
Pain is awesome for this because it is such an intense feeling that it is easy to keep your attention on it.
At first the pain may intensify when you look at it. That is your ego throwing a tantrum because it uses pain as one of the ways to make you think that you are it.
You say things like “this is my pain” and thus the ego affirms itself as you.
You are the silent witness; like the screen onto which images are projected isn’t affected by those images but remains unchanged.
Pain is just one of those images.
Ask yourself the question:
“What makes pain different to any other experience?”
“Because it hurts!” Is not an answer; it’s a tautology; hurt and pain are synonyms.
What makes pain different to other experiences is that you don’t like it.
Set a timer for 20 minutes and during that time pay attention to the pain and whenever your attention wanders and you realize it has wandered bring it back.
That’s what meditation is.
It isn’t not thinking; it’s just choosing to pay attention to something other than thought.
If you do this for 20 minutes you will have moments when you experience the pain as something happening outside of you.
You will see it has interesting qualities.
Maybe you’ll get a brief experience of enlightenment where all there will be is the pain; but there’ll be no-one there experiencing the pain to not like it.
The pain will become like a dance you are watching.
It’s one of whatever-it-is-that-controls-this-whole-shabang’s little tricks it plays to get you to realize your true nature: the silent witness.
The ego has tricked us into thinking that it’s the important thing. Once you realize you are not your ego then you can have fun with the ego.
You can play around by putting on different egos.
The ego is necessary to interact with other people; but the ego should not be in control.
It has tricked people into thinking it’s in control and this has caused the suffering which you’ll realize is an illusion once you realize you are not your ego but that the ego is your tool.